Wednesday, makes me sad...

I work out of town for two weeks at a time. The nice part of this is the two week vacation that I get every month. Having the money to do so is nice also. Having a job that I enjoy 99% of the time is great. The only issue that keeps popping up is the dread of leaving.
Truth is, I really like my existence at home. My boys are really great to be around (not all of the time, but enough to make it worth while). I never appreciated the calmness and security of being home when I was there every night and weekend.
Now I am at work for both of the holidays and it is a stressor. The main thing isn't being gone for Christmas and New year's day, that can be done any time (and it's cheaper after the first of the year). It's missing the greatest time of the year, Christmas vacation. I love just hanging out and existing with both of the reasons that I do what I do. That is all for now.

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